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Happy New Year everyone. My hope is that your 2025 is just right.
I’m just over here, keepin’ it dumb ‘n fancy, thanks.
I thought I’d do some life-ing here on the blog ‘o war, insofar as life hits me as an expressionist activity right now.
I’m just gonna express myself, and here we go.
2024
2024 was a hard year, then a difficult one, then a challenging one, then in retrospect, something of a transitional year for me.
It was a year filled with new experiences. I made a lot of art. I published new information that didn’t exist before, and even got to invent a couple of things that helped me out a lot.
Still, while working on all that, plus the new technical forays, the consulting, the project directing, the business adminning, the coaching…I held lots of questions inside.
I was treasuring those questions, as if I thought they’d sort themselves out, and I’d get to watch as it happened. I was excited about ALL of them.
And nah, nope. So many of those questions practically rotted away inside of me, and I hated that feeling.
So one thing I’m thinking about 2025 is: I don’t care if I have to write a million words just to get one of them into that worked-on, processed state. It’s better than the alternative.
This Blog
About this blog, I wondered: Keep writing as much? And if so, write about which of the million topics that come to mind?
Which one?
But today, I think I get it: Let me just share this one, whatever it turns out to be.
I felt somehow dry inside, in some aspects of last year’s experience. Worn out, at times, by a strange sense of more new, troubling dichotomies to explore and reconcile.
And not even that they were painful to think about? But that I felt I could bring new perspectives to bear on them.
So this dryness and rot definitely set in when I kept seeing and thinking about the same old topics over and over, and I didn’t find the time to stop and explore all of them and apply my latest thinking to them…
…or probably more realistically—I experienced and explored other important stuff, and during that time, those things didn’t happen.
(Rest in Peace, Mom)
(And as a politically-charged year, 2024 was not helping with this dry part at all, either)
(Rest in Peace, Watson the Cat)
Discussing it With Us
This dry situation needed discussion. I felt blamed, somehow, internally.
I discussed it—so to speak—with my internal archetypes.
There was a stalemate. The voices of reason and progress were halted, temporarily, by considerations from a new source of inner critique.
And, aside: The inner critic can look like anyone, or anything.
Maybe we can say that, in your Internal Family System, or whatever model of “theoretical people inside you” that’s fairly constructive—it’s whoever picks up the mic and complains?
Yes, I’d say: Your inner critic is whoever picks up the mic and complains, is really getting at it.
And this seems more true, the more persistent and regular the complaints they make.
This time, the complaint I was hearing was about this tug of war between accomplishment and ultra-energy.
Which, WTF is Ultra-energy
Ultra-energy is the future you, probably. I don’t know. It just felt appropriate to write.
(Some people think being excited about future-potential is way too fancy, and corny, and BOY am I holding back, so if that’s you, please show yourself out or shield your eyes a bit, just in case more escapes below.)
And here’s how it goes:
You can make huge amounts of progress, and reach new milestones. You can enjoy it and feel great about it.
But this is, still, in some ways, the opposite of having another life that’s more fun, carefree, and also exploratory, creative.
Your future self wants to be more of those things FOR SURE.
It is NOT SO SURE, on the other hand, about whether it wants the goals you are working at right now.
And if you continue to fall behind on the fun, on the exploration…then one day, that fun, carefree, laid back person inside—or their babysitter—might become the voice of your passionate inner critic!
Ouch.
The Most Painful Critic of All is Probably Super Laid-back
The normal critic—the Healthy, Developed, Experienced Critic—is not really that harsh of a critic.
You know? Like a really experienced movie critic you might watch on TV or Youtube or something…
That particular Critic is probably really good at measuring their words, they think about their audience’s needs, they allow some nuance in their conclusions, and they keep an open mind.
They might even have a sense of humor!
So yeah, it’s actually the PERIODIC or INEXPERIENCED Critic , someone normally very laid back, even—that’s just painfully annoying to deal with.
THAT critic thinks in black and white terms, they don’t seem to measure any words, they are angry, they want what’s theirs while not exactly giving you what’s yours, either.
I had a talk with this Critic, and I journaled my way through that, and realized:
This doesn’t mean they don’t have a point
Their inexperience and anger may seem annoying, but they may still have a really good point.
The point might be better described by looking at their archetype or their role, though. You might have to look past their language.
And so I realized that this critic was protecting my deepest values.
They were trying, I realized, to nurture a new me.
Oh no.
I thought about my thinking-environment, my day-to-day, and realized: It’s not that kind of environment.
I couldn’t nurture a new me that way. Not there.
New You Needs an Environment?
“New me needs an environment?…Huh!”
This particular thought really struck me as so different from the normal stuff we all think about. Still does.
At any given moment, a new you is taking shape.
Maybe it’s your inner child, or inner toddler, inner baby. Who knows.
But that inner being is often all of these things:
This is good stuff. I can’t even describe how much I love all of that.
Creating the New Environment
I understood that I needed to create a new environment for this side of me. (This aspect, this inner person, this idea, this philosophy, whatever you want to call it.)
I looked around, too. I shopped for environments.
I didn’t find anything out there.
I found people, I found discussion groups, I found platforms, chats, forums. Training, certification. Theories, books, documentaries.
But they were all hitting so different, compared to what I could feel was needed.
I Went Outside
Last month I went outside on a sunny winter day, around lunchtime, and sat in the sunlight.
I felt the sun heating my back until I felt like I was too close to the heater. I needed to take off a layer. Maybe put shorts on today?? Wow. I’m warm!
It was 62F, in December.
This perspective felt so different from the way I had been treating the season so far.
That particular outside location was, until that day—and even at 62F!—a cold reality, merely a hallway I would pass through on my way to a working context, or to a resting context.
But maybe while I was going to work, or to rest, I was passing through an interesting, dynamic, exploratory context?
Could I Find AND Make a New Environment?
Was this the environment I wanted?
I could accept it: It presents itself to me, or my mind, as an exploratory realm. OK. It is in a state of accepting acceptance. It feels like it is ready to accommodate me.
I could work on it, in it: I thought about myself as a sculptor, architect. I already know how to work outside, to perform with and to palettize its elements to some degree.
I made a simple bench once. I made a pole saw with a super long stick and a swiss army knife. I made a hammer, I made a wooden gutter-cleaner.
This is not counting all the ridiculous stuff I made as a boy scout, either.
Was it that though? Outdoorsy…hands-onny…get out your saw…
Nah.
It wasn’t, and it isn’t, some creative-bushcrafting exercise. It’s not about connecting with nature.
It’s going to be about newness, and I am holding on to that.
What is New, Anyway?
I ask myself what’s new. What is really new, for me?
The unknown. That’s what’s new.
I’m on the Starship Enterprise, and so are you, and so is that person over there.
We’re explorers.
The outside is just a way for me to remember that. It’s just a different place.
Different place, different thoughts, unknown thoughts. A highway to somewhere, sometime, or even a highway to never.
And then:
You bump into something.
I realize I’ll bump into some things. I’ve done this before.
Some topic, you know? To explore.
Some of those old questions I didn’t explore already died. Some are still alive, and some are yet to be discovered.
Hopefully it’ll be fun, creative, interesting.
Err, I mean:
“Make it so…?”
I act, I charge into it all, and then I’m acted upon, and I’m nothing, and also maybe some things.
Let’s see how it goes.
Music: Duke Dumont – Ocean Drive
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Author Note: While I offer a lot of speculation here, this analysis is based on my expert observations as a formally trained personality type coach with extensive experience administering restricted psychometric tests.
As the 2024 presidential election approaches, Kamala Harris and Tim Walz are making waves with their unique personalities and leadership styles.
Harris is known for her executive charisma and high ambition, while Walz is recognized for his down-to-earth, pragmatic, friendly approach.
In this article, I’ll explore the potential strengths and weaknesses of each candidate’s personality type, and how these factors might interact and influence their leadership styles in a potential NT-temperament presidency.
Let’s start with VP Kamala Harris.
In my analysis, Kamala Harris seems to fit the ENTJ personality type extremely well.
So, first, it’s worth pointing out that this puts VP Harris in the same personality-type lineup as these public figures:
What do they have in common?
First, since this article is about personality type theory, it can help to avoid projecting one’s own like/dislike take, for any of these personalities, onto Harris. Just adding this in case you are already working down the list, thinking “hate, hate, meh, OK, I like” or similar…!
So, reviewing the list generally / objectively, you can see that we have people who are very directive and energetic toward goals. They tend to pick up a cause and run with it. They also tend to want to delegate the details. And they would rather use “the now” to plan for the future, being generally sensitive about the future.
I would also point out that generally, this type group does not like to be caught thinking about the past, except for deriving very straightforward lessons in strategy or tactics. You may have noticed that Harris already made something of a slogan out of this!
…and what about the other glaring issue: She’s not exactly like any of those other ENTJ people?
OK, this is a basic lesson of personality type: While personality type theory is extremely helpful and powerful, people are more than just their type. We all have millions of traits that also set us apart from others. Everyone is unique, and a type is also meant to denote a group of people, helping individuals connect the “me” with “the group” for more objective help in understanding themselves.
So, looking into this individuality direction a bit, while still holding onto the strengths of type theory, I think we can see that Kamala Harris also has some traits that lean far into the opposite personality zone. This is fairly common. We all tend to become a bit like our opposite sometimes!
For example, it has been said of VP Harris that she can oscillate between:
In my opinion, it’s best to look at these as two parts of a whole, like the yin & yang of her personality.
In general, these two points in isolation DO NOT matter that much…unless you tend to overuse one of them! This generally leads to the other one taking over with a vengeance.
Most people are not very skilled in handling the emergence of their opposite personality, and these changes over to the opposite side can cause quick, sudden damage to one’s image, reputation, or career.
So, we will see how this works out with VP Harris, especially given that she is an individual with her own traits, and not just an ENTJ.
Now let’s get back into the ENTJ type a bit more. We can learn a lot by knowing about the broader ENTJ personality type.
For example, how does Kamala Harris balance those general personality factors in her more individualized approach to life?
And, is she conscious of any typical ENTJ tendencies, like these, for example:
With some basic awareness and maturity, those problems can usually be overcome. So that’s the question: Do they apply, and if so, to what degree is she aware & attentive to them?
There are also many, many other ENTJ-related questions to consider:
So, just a bunch of interesting factors to think about.
It seems clear to me that VP Harris is generally ambitious, charismatic, and well-versed on a variety of topics and perspectives. Let’s see how the situation and her personality dynamics develop from here.
In my own analysis, it seems that Tim Walz fits best into the INTP personality type. That puts him in company of these other INTP public figures:
I mention Ryan McBeth here because he’s an example of a pragmatic INTP who has served as an NCO in the US Military. I think you’ll see some similarities to Tim Walz’s style in Ryan.
Also, I personally know & have come across a LOT of INTPs who seem to have preferred the NCO path in the US Military, with Sergeant being a sort of favorite “understated, pragmatically valuable leadership” rank that they like to reach & really personify.
This could be a reflection of the ESFJ opposite-type motivational effect, in which the INTP naturally reaches toward their opposite type in developing themselves and their career. The leadership-oriented ESFJ is often seen focusing on more “humble, relatable” leadership roles, like becoming the mayor of a small town.
Some will relate this to the cognitive functions Si and Ti, both of which are generally little-picture focused, with Si also being somewhat associated with the understated “humble ol’ me” style. It can also be related back to a distaste for the “showy” cognitive function Se, or to the INTP’s preferred interaction style, “Behind the Scenes”. In any case, it’s nice to have a variety of perspectives from which to look at this, as each perspective will also tend to relate forward into the individual’s future.
Reviewing the list of INTPs above, you’ll find a lot of thoughtful people. They are interested in learning about, and analyzing problems. Even Larry David is basically ALL about that analytical approach, even though most of us only see that in his ‘it’s only logical’ style of humor.
Regarding “the past”, which is a very important psychological perspective: In contrast to the ENTJ, INTPs tend to be much more comfortable thinking in & about the past, and learning deeply from lessons of the past. Even to the degree that some INTPs are not fully comfortable introducing a new idea or theory unless it can be directly related to some aspect of the past.
I will also note that Walz has a very solid, grounded, yet flexible grasp on logical analysis in general, indicating maturity in the logic zone! This closely matches the style of the INTP’s foundational cognitive function, Ti. Most recently this gift was pointed out in the context of maps and mapping data.
Just like VP Harris, Tim Walz is a unique individual. He also demonstrates these traits which are somewhat “less INTP”:
It may be that he picked up some of these from how he was raised & where he was raised, as he has mentioned in public.
Also, I would note that all three of these points are valuable and effective career skills for a sergeant in the military.
Regarding any tendency to oscillate (basic cognitive function dynamics), we can’t really say much is on the record about that, or at least I haven’t seen it. But here is a simple example based on the INTP personality type and NT temperament:
It’s my guess that we may see him expanding his outward focus on “joy” around a hyper-serious Kamala Harris, creating a bit of an odd effect on the audience at times. If so, this may happen because of his effective, pragmatic grasp of the audience and how to relate to them, as opposed to the ENTJ style of simply directing the audience, or telling them what’s going to happen.
While his potential role as a VP is still up in the air, I do ask myself:
Also, sometimes those seemingly “joyful & charismatic” INTPs can surprisingly & casually dominate in ways that people might not expect.
Finally, I want to zoom out just a little bit, and get into the NT temperament.
Both Kamala Harris and Tim Walz share the NT temperament. (In this case, you can see the letters “NT” in each of their four-letter personality types.)
NT’s are also known as “Rationals” (David Kiersey) or “Theorists” (Linda Berens).
This close combination of two NTs leading a presidential administration seems like it could be a pretty huge factor in terms of outcomes for the US government, and possibly the world. It also potentially magnifies or potentiates the work of both figures together.
The Trump-Vance ticket is of the SP temperament, somewhat the opposite of the NT temperament in many ways. (You can see the letters S and P appearing in their four-letter types, with Trump being ESTP, and Vance being ESFP.)
SPs are also known as “Artisans” (David Kiersey) or “Improvisers” (Linda Berens).
These types are known to be more comfortable operating “in the moment” and may be less comfortable with topics like long-term planning, risk assessment, and big-picture strategy.
This is a really interesting question to me: Will we have an NT presidency? This would tend to create a ripple effect in US policy, strengthening these factors:
Keep in mind that these new outcomes would not just be “coming from” these two individuals; rather it would tend to be heavily rewarded by these individuals and any system they lead.
So there is a big potential for many new NT-temperament-related wheels to start cranking, throughout government, economy, and almost any public concern.
This makes me think about the stark reality of personality type: Some people are similar…others are very, very different.
Some example questions that come to mind:
These are just some casual examples of my thoughts on the temperament factor though, nothing serious in my mind yet.
OK, I don’t really have time for a long conclusion today. As usual, I ran out of time while writing this. But WOW this has been a very engaging presidential election bid so far…let’s see how it goes.
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I wanted to share some quick personality analysis, after watching this interesting video by Allan Lichtman, author, researcher and professor behind the Keys to the White House theory.
In the video, Prof. Lichtman “schools” Cenk Uygur of the Young Turks, offering counter-critique to Uygur’s original call-out video.
Before I go further…a challenge…
If you have a prediction-oriented personality, please predict what I will say here, before you read the rest of the article! Make some simple notes, but add a reasonable amount of detail.
This can be an enlightening activity for predictive types to learn about their personality, their own predictive style, and potentially their gifts.
Quick Note: In case the following information does not seem obvious, it is based on my own experience in personality theory, in being extensively trained in the topic, in training and coaching hundreds of people, administering psychometric instruments, running a personality-theory blog for many years, etc.
Yes, you read that right, I am an EXPERIENCED BLOGGER…hear my voice! :-)
The Breakdown
Here is a basic breakdown of the personalities involved, by type.
This is my best estimation right now:
Note that both are NT types, known as “Theorists” or “Rationals” in Temperament theory.
In Uygur’s original video, we can see the following:
First, Cenk says that Professor Lichtman is “entirely full of crap”. This is an emotionally-charged statement, and it’s also a considerable generalization.
Coming from an INTJ this kind of statement immediately causes some concern, as those are both common INTJ blind spots: 1) Overburdened emotional critique and 2) Lack of consideration for details. OK? Continuing…
Next, Cenk focuses on the professor’s statement: “Other people dont have any track record,” Cenk says. But then he jumps to his own track record.
Focusing on Cenk’s personality type, a Ni-dominant (a qualitative-prediction-oriented) type, this also causes some concern. In my experience, it leads me to wonder if Cenk sees himself as an up-and-comer, a contender, in the area where Professor Licthman has established himself: Prediction!
This takes us back into the theory. Let’s go:
Let’s get deeper the personality theory a little bit:
First, these are both NT personality types (note the letters “NT” in both personality types).
NT personality types tend to think very fluidly with regard to time (notice how in these videos, both of them jump comfortably from past to future, making confident statements in both contexts), and prediction is a very common contested space for NT types.
Also, both of these personality types lead with intuition:
Lichtman had a new idea (his model) and really ran with it! That’s common for Inventor types.
An ENTP like Lichtman is also probably more likely to critique someone else’s lack of due care in organizing information. You can clearly see this approach in his video response to Uygur.
Now for Uygur:
An INTJ like Uygur gets a singular, strong, intuitive summary-impression, and runs with it (his video calling out Prof. Lichtman as being “entirely full of crap”)! This general wholistic-summary-first approach is common for intuitive Critic types, even if the details may differ considerably.
An INTJ like Uygur is probably more likely to critique knowledge that seems “un-standardized” or “made up”. In my experience, Uygur would definitely focus on theories like Lichtman’s, in this mode.
In fact, he makes fun of the idea of “picking factors” at about 4:45 in the video. While his critique may be relevant in some ways, this kind of focus can also can indicate an INTJ’s lack of experience in working with qualitative logic, as opposed to broad, shared-knowledge quantitative logic.
To me this adds some weight to the idea that Cenk is in a very passionate, ego-driven mindset.
There is also a strong difference in predictive style.
I predict (ha) that if this contest continues into a debate format, Cenk will attempt to turn it into a sort of betting format: “Let’s see who wins,” (makes a better prediction) or similar.
To me this would be very unwise, but I don’t believe Cenk is able to do much more than that, given his current approach.
In effect, Cenk may tend to focus on showing in a variety of ways that he is a more trustworthy person than Lichtman. INTJ types can be intensely focused on individual character, especially during or past their mid-life stage.
To me, that’s very interesting…
Still, Cenk claims that he went 12-0 in publicly predicting elections. They weren’t all presidential elections, but still…
OK, and for Professor Lichtman:
OK, I just looked at the clock and I spent wayyyy too much time writing this. And before closing, I wanted to touch on the fact that NT personality perspectives basically invented debate as we know it, due to the preference for information exchange and resolution of perspectives based on the presentation of information.
This leads us to a situation where, of course, one or more of these NT types will tend to lean into the idea of having a debate! And Professor Lichtman threw down the gauntlet at the end of his video.
So, to wrap up the article in a kinda-fun way, here are my tips for both Cenk Uygur and Professor Lichtman, should they ever debate one another:
For extra credit, Uygur should also study and carefully critique Professor Lichtman’s model. Lichtman will gain extra points every time Uygur shows that he doesn’t understand the basic functionality of the Keys model. Remember what George E.P. Box said—all models are broken, even if some are useful! (Paraphrased!) Build on any relevant weaknesses that you can, and will, find if you study out the logic.
For extra credit, Lichtman should also integrate a gestalt sub-model into his existing model! Directly integrate the big-picture, rather than generating it! This will seem more authentically interesting and trustworthy to people like Uygur, many of whom want a reason to trust your model.
Peter Zeihan (who also rings my INTJ bell) is calling the 2024 election for Biden. You can compare his style to the personalities above.
Remember, a personality type is a group and not an individual. Individuals always vary in different ways, even though personality type tools can give us a powerful analytical perspective.
OK, that’s all for now everybody. Have a great day! —Marc
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Above: The author used this journaling page to do some mind-mapping, doodling, and To-Do listing. (In shorthand…sorry it’s not super readable). Some pages are structured…others more chaotic!
This is a favorite topic that I wrote about a tiny bit on Reddit recently. But I wanted to flesh the full thing out, so here we go.
This is how I organize or structure a new binder or notebook. I’ve been honing this practice for close to 10 years now, and this is the current version that works best for me.
There are four main sections to the notebook.
1. The “Meta” Section
(Named after Mark Zuckerberg, who I believe invented this word…kidding!)
The Meta section is “about” the notebook. In this section the very front of the notebook, you can:
You can do this all on one page, or spread it across a few pages.
You may also want to use or affix a simple way to keep needed tools or documents up in front. Like a stencil, ruler, random number picker, etc.
Sometimes I have my fold-out random number picker (printable PDF) in this section. I use it for games, simulations, creative journaling methods I’ve blogged about before.
2. The “Topics” Section
“Topics” sections are a mix of structured sections or single pages for specific topics, or other specific, structured uses.
For example:
You may wish to put tabs on the outside of these pages if you use them frequently.
Important: Each section / page in Topics copies the overall notebook organization style: 1. Meta / To-Do – 2. Topics – 3. Free Logging – 4. Extra Space. This is why I call this the Fractal Method. The organization of Topics pages, or even Free Logging pages, is a micro-copy of the organization of the whole notebook.
3. The “Free Journaling / Log-keeping Pages” Section
These are pages you can just date & write on. The newest entries go in the back of this section.
Journaling / Log-keeping Tip #1: For best results in learning and remembering things, some of the contents here can eventually be structured and moved into Topics pages above.
For example, if you went to a seminar about Earthquake Preparedness, and wrote about it in the Journaling section, you can later create a structured summary of those notes, and add it to your Topics section.
Ta-Da, now you have a super-helpful quick reference that’s not buried in your logging & journaling pages, all mixed in with hurried notes from a phone call with your plumber.
Journaling / Log-keeping Tip #2: You can also experiment with drawing lines that divide the page up quickly.
I like to create a thick right-margin by drawing a vertical line about an inch and a half from the right edge of the page.
In that margin space on the right side, I usually put the date at top of the column, an optional location like “At the Beach”, then a to-do list & schedule beneath it.
You can think of this right-side column as my “Meta” space for each page.
Journaling / Log-keeping Tip #3: To me, it’s important to follow these steps when Journaling for productivity:
Now, each of my To-Do list items is simplified, clarified (in terms of time / duration), and scheduled. This is super important for unlocking productivity!
So by this time, I’m usually very ready to get on with my day and the next steps!
Of course, this is still a Journaling section! You should feel free to journal in whatever way sounds best to you. Write poetry, draw pictures, complain, and so on. It’s all good.
To help with this, on the left side of the page, I often draw 2-3 horizontal divider lines, creating 3-4 rectangle-shaped areas running down the page.
I use these areas for different things like free writing, sketching little pictures or icons, developing or structuring new topics, and so on.
4. The “Extra Paper” Section
This section is pretty simple!
I like to have a mix of lined & gridded paper at least. Blank paper is OK, but I love to work with linear sections, so I do prefer some lines or dots on the paper.
Never underestimate the power of starting from a blank page though! You can use this section to reinvent your own method of journaling, if you’d like.
OK, that was the paper version. And yes, I do this in my digital notes, too:
Digital Meta Section
I have a sort of root-folder where I keep all my notes.
It has some general information about how I organize things.
(I kid you not, I even have a file full of instructions for myself in case I completely forget who I am! I admit I was a little bored and a little daydreamy when I created that)
Nerd Alert: I write my stuff in Emacs with Org Mode, because I am super-duper into tech. I like being able to write & run custom software directly inside my topics pages, for example.
To me, that’s really exciting. I mean imagine sketching out an app right inside your journal! An app that actually works! To you though, maybe that’s not interesting.
So, pick the system that seems a good fit for you, and count on changing it later! I started out with Windows Notepad, and have used over 50 different writing & journaling apps since that time. (Some of them were graceful, beautiful to look at, and terrible to print or export. Others were the opposite)
Digital Topics
I keep Topics in separate sub-folders.
These Include:
If I can, I try to keep info in sub-folders where appropriate, to avoid having too many folders in my face.
Digital Journaling
This section is for daily journaling. It contains:
And yes, each one of these journaling templates has a ton of blank space for doodling in my text files!
Custom Tools
Just like I have some custom tools in my paper notebook, I’ve written some software to do specific searches, or to add specific things to my notebook files:
The paper version of this system kind of assumes you are using something like a binder, where you can move papers around. But if you use something like a composition notebook instead, it should be pretty simple to adapt things. It will be more important to leave a bit of extra space after each section, for example.
So, that’s the basic idea that has served me really well.
I find that these notebooks are useful for far longer this way, and the system is very easy to work with.
In the future, I hope to add some photos here, to make things clearer.
In the meantime though: I hope this method can be helpful to you!
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Above: It’s finally sunny here again. So, a snack, some radio time, some whittling (snack whittling!).
More stuff has been on my mind again, so I should let it out.
As usual, this post will be very theoretical (“I’m GROUNDED, in theory”), somewhat grandiose, awkwardly self-deprecating for vague reasons, detail-oriented over here, but concept-oriented over there, and other dumb things like that. You have been warned!
So, no particular order:
Tools, Knives, Pocketknives, Paracord
I’ve learned a lot about sharpening my various tools and knives. This kind of started after I realized I never really found a favorite method for sharpening and honing.
Just when I thought I was settled on “I kind of like dull knives?” (long story, but as a Scout I sure did a lot with nothing very sharp…), I get interested in the sharp ones!
I think this has also been an interesting topic to me lately in part because of the idea of making solid, direct judgement calls relating to “moving on” with different aspects of life. (You could call them severance-related, cutting-off related even? But those terms while helpful to communicate the concept, are also way too harsh in a big way) So, there’s certainly a sort of archetypal tie-in energy that seems to be behind the interest.
I settled on a pretty simple double-sided whetstone for now, and the results are good enough. I’ve been able to get some edges up to “crazy sharp”, but I’m sure I have a lot more to discover.
I’ve been using and abusing various tools and knives. I learned to braid and wrap paracord, and I’ve played a lot with different color combinations.
Tarot and the Occult
It’s been fun to use the tarot deck as a creativity tool. There are some books out there that cover this topic really well. And they’ve helped open my mind to angles and aspects I haven’t considered.
I have a little tarot-draw script in my text editor, which pulls the cards for me and it’s all pretty simple.
Emacs Progress
I continue to study Emacs. My latest changes are:
Ham Radio Hobby
I’m still quietly listening and learning, mostly. I do still use my radios a ton when I’m out hiking.
My latest interest here is the firmware-modified Quansheng UV-K6, which has kind of blown my mind! It’s really pretty amazing what that thing can do, and how many little checkboxes it can check! Just about every little portable / hiking annoyance I’ve ever had has now been solved by that radio and its custom firmware (I’m using EZGumer).
Hiking
My practices here have evolved a lot.
I do a lot more trail maintenance now.
I have lots of favorite tools, and I have cut and moved a LOT more wood than I thought I would, after storms rolled through.
I didn’t imagine I’d end up carrying a 10 inch folding saw up there, and wondering about even longer ones! These things are pretty amazing.
Sometimes I’ll leave the house and walk + hike for a couple hours to get to where up in the hills where there’s a fallen tree, then I’ll cut it up, move the pieces off the trail, and head home for another couple of hours. I really enjoy this.
I also love listening to movie podcasts and local radio stations while I’m hiking around. Just getting a nice mix of sounds going in the background is really pleasant (Se/Te in a Big Wey)
Movies
The Long Good Friday (1980) was excellent.
I feel very lucky to have seen a lot of really good movies lately.
I also feel lucky to have seen a lot of really bad movies that were a lot of fun.
Reading
I’m still reading books, and listening to them, a lot more than I had in previous years. This has been a fun change. Some recent fun ones:
Reading is kinda interesting in itself, now that I’m really into archetypes and symbolism. I try to see some aspect of myself in the cover art, in the topic, the title, or just the vibe.
War. Relations with friends, loved ones, family. Creativity. Ideas. Space. Battle. Hell. Birds. Viewing. Pacts, Commands, Wars. Hot and Cold.
Are these really my mental state? I find that war is an emotionally-expressive, boundary-reclaiming metaphor for me. I was raised by an army officer, so that’s a big part of my symbolic vocabulary.
See, sometimes as I wrap up in my nostalgic camouflage woobie and read a bit more about the T-80, or someone’s favorite theory, I just get a feeling of comfort from familiarity. I’m reading my own past, and I’m reviewing it, and I’m trying to bring a few more of those experiences and points of view and strengths forward.
This, to me, is a lot of what the midlife change really dwells on: Your past was a vocabulary, a language. You’re still fluent in it. So why are you trying so hard to move away from that fluency? You could get what you wanted, life wasn’t so bad, and hey, what about…(good points aplenty)
There are so many good points in even some of my dumbest past experiences. Ugh!
Art and Drawing
I’ve been doing a lot more drawing, with something of an energy-reset.
I’m rebuilding on past successes more than I did before. I feel like I have a pretty good assortment of media and methods to pick from, and so I’m more likely to use some of those.
So, I still draw with pencil on lined paper, in cheap spiral-bound school notebooks, a lot. I draw mechs, I draw mind maps, flow charts, and hundreds of checkboxes.
I’ve made some textile art, painting T-shirts and such. I’m going to continue that, because it’s been really enjoyable.
I also modded a backpack with some custom paracord decorations and patches, and had a lot of fun doing so.
Art is so restorative in its way. It brings back these expressive energies and says, “is it so purely emotional to simply create? Can’t creation be recognized as amazing on its own, even if backed by pure emotion, pure intuition, pure logic, and so on?”
This is another one of those “good points”. Not every hobby has to be integrative at any given point, even if it ends up taking that route.
Business Hours
I talked a bit about energy fluctuations last time.
I think of them as “Business Hours” now.
During parts of the day, your body and mind are open for business. During this time, you can do integrative work. New stuff meets your same-old me, and new activities meet your same-old ways, and it’s normal and fine.
And during other parts, you’re closed. No vacancy. During this time, you can do personal work. Stuff you WANNA do. None of that integrative BS! If you force it during these hours—forcing personal time to be business hours? Your body and mood chemistry will make you pay, sometimes dearly.
The weird thing is, the timing of all of this is utterly predictable, once you’ve given it some basic analysis.
If you can predict it, you’ll have better control over your life. You’ll probably wonder what happened, or why no one taught you this.
So, I think everyone should try learning their business hours. I find I get about three to four solid business-hours periods during normal workday hours. When they’re over though, they’re over!
Someday I’ll write up a formal method, maybe.
But for now, consider yourself aware! It may not just be your mood, or your attitude. It may not be your life choices.
It may just be what time it is right now.
As grandma would say: How about that?
Have a great week everybody!
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Find my way to keyback cluster
On my way to nearest home
Find my way to this, my universe
Toward my puddle in the stone
Find my face just blown away
Mouth agape, eyes blazing
The inferno looks right back at me
and points to keyback cluster
It shouts and screams and kicks and thrusts
Landed on a foreign, shore
Yet here we are, and here we’ll be
until I reorient my core—
So to speak—so to put it!
For surely some translation’s needed.
(There isn’t any way I’d risk another
little thing to block our lines.)
It’s getting late and while things are
starry, stories are told.
Men once me, no doubt
are sorry.
Staring.
Fire.
Sorry.
Plus there just aren’t many that I know
who must find their way back, and muster,
put due diligence into finding
their way to keyback cluster.
Above: Some weekend whittling and drawing.
Just a quick wrap-up post for the year, in which I’ll try to share what’s been on my mind lately, and some bits about how things have gone in 2023.
As usual, this post will be very theoretical (“I’m GROUNDED, in theory”), somewhat grandiose, awkwardly self-deprecating for vague reasons, detail-oriented over here, but concept-oriented over there, and other dumb things like that. You have been warned!
So, no particular order:
Physical Fitness Goals and Practice
Back around 2016 I was able to reach a number of huge physical fitness goals, due to my extreme weight loss experience. This was exciting stuff! Doing a bunch of pull-ups at any point after age 35 is probably always exciting, no matter who you are.
After that, I lost most of the range of motion (ROM) and use of my arm due to an injury (not workout related), and spent years recovering. In the beginning, I could barely even eat, write, or type with my bad arm, and moving my hand from keyboard to mouse was excruciating.
It was a scary and annoying setback. It wasn’t my fault. And to be fair, none less than the U.S. Government seemed ready to reimburse me for this injury, even though I didn’t pursue that path. Overall I can’t complain about the way things worked out in the end.
This year, I was finally able to make a sustainable return to a much wider range of fitness and workout activities. Though many of them need to be gentle to be effective, this has been a big point of learning for me.
I’m hoping that in 2024 I can continue to learn new things from this process.
Slope of curve as a tracking metric for life changes
A simple one, which might sound complex: I started tracking “slope” as I track my goals. That is, the slope of the improvement curve. The rate of change.
For an example of how this works:
In some cases, I want to pay attention to broader timelines as well, so I will track: 3-day slope, 5-day, 10-day, 20-day, all in one list.
This helps me to build a sense of long-term goal alignment, building a bridge between “tracking too many details to be sustainable” and “going off track.” It helps me to build a sense of what’s working and what’s not.
And, I don’t have to stare at a long list of numbers and guess how I’m doing.
I don’t use a smart watch anymore, because my graphs and measuring practices are too different from what smart watch app designers think everybody wants to track. So I’d like to eventually find a smart watch platform that I can either completely customize (and I mean…completely) or build by myself.
Subjective Systems of Type
In 2023 I spent more time working on very subjective personality type systems. They are very subjective in that they only need to work for ME at first, and that’s fine.
Why do this? It’s effective. You can work with people in a completely different way. You can solve problems you couldn’t solve before, both in your own life and in the lives of others. You can work your way off your usual life script, and end up in a different kind of situation that’s new, or fun, or enlightening, or just weird and confusing, and you can see it even if others may not, and THAT is a pretty fascinating feeling.
(Would that be worth it to you?)
Over time, I may talk to people or ask them about different aspects of their experiences, and determine whether there might be some broader, objective overlap from mine to theirs—some kind of objective reliability.
In many cases there is some of that, but I don’t have the time to spare in writing up the theory for the greater public.
This makes me a bit frustrated for who we all are, and what we could become, if somehow this kind of propagation of experience or knowledge was easier, or easier to balance with higher priorities in our lives.
Productivity
I’ve used my productivity systems, Whole Productivity and Task BATL, all year long. They’ve been the backbone to every other activity you see here.
This year I used my productivity tools as more of a language or palette, to develop new, ad hoc productivity systems, in support of some very specific activities. For example, a new type of project engagement at work. Since Task BATL is a modular system, this worked pretty well.
Subjective Systems of Archetype
I’ve been continuing work on building my own symbol dictionary. Again, this is for me, it’s not something I’m writing to publish for others.
It’s somewhat similar to a dream dictionary, if you’re familiar with those, but it’s instead, it’s based on things like:
Since these items are all “symbolically available” as tools to help me understand and solve problems better, this has been a very useful activity. I don’t think I could stop updating this dictionary if I wanted to!
Frontdooring
I continue to find my Frontdooring practice reliable as a healthy, meditative activity.
I haven’t expanded it as much this year, but it’s been a very helpful combination with my energy-periods studies, below.
Reading
I’ve focused a lot on reading imaginative, classic works this year: Jules Verne, H. Rider Haggard, and similar. One of my goals was to build better, more consistent access to fantasy worlds and mindsets.
I’ve also been working on a theory of books and reading, meant specifically to support a given type of energy level. For this reason I often make it a goal to skip directly to the climax of a book, or read the ending first, or things like that. This is about vitality, energy, and less about “what it literally means to read a book.”
And, it helps!
On the side, I developed a habit of rewarding myself with a review of the latest Project Gutenberg books, every time I complete a Wordle puzzle. It’s amazing how many new books are posted there. It’s probably at least four new books every day, on average.
Movies
I’ve been watching a lot more VHS rips this year. Previously I was much more of a quality hound, overlooking VHS and hoping for a BluRay edition, and so on.
But just to be really honest about how maybe-brainy this goes: I find that VHS titles offer a much different experience, one which is extremely useful in navigating certain metaphorical-psychological mindsets.
If you think of it as using a movie as a tool for self-support based on “who you used to be”, this might sound interesting—but I think most of us are used to using movies as “somethin’ to watch.” Which is fine and something I still do for sure.
Some of my favorite movies to watch or re-watch this year have been (ordered by release year):
Some of these have simply been enjoyable experiences for me. Others have been more deeply examined, or maybe I listened to podcasts about them, or wrote about them in depth.
Have you ever listened to a really enjoyable podcast about one of your own favorite movies? This is a pretty underrated activity, I think…
Learning Emacs
I’ve enjoyed learning Emacs this year. This app is pretty amazing.
In order to learn and grow in a way that can also support my business goals (from web dev, to app consulting, to training and coaching), I’ve been spending a lot of time with my Emacs coach, Prot.
Prot is a deeply-qualified expert and has been very patient with me, thank god. I’ve enjoyed learning to use and customize Emacs.
One of my favorite things about Emacs is that I can experiment directly with the way the software itself works. I can change the core features just as easily as I can type in my journal! And it’s pretty easy to change things back if I accidentally destroyed something vital.
Radio: AM/FM/SW. Scanning, Amateur Radio, etc.
I decided to develop this hobby in a much more patient, quiet, solitary way this year.
To me, radio is “about” distant ranges of time, as a metaphorical perspective. It’s about tuning into distant perspectives that can be extremely helpful to us. The more distant the radio signal, the longer the timeline. I find that shortwave radio is more “about” 10-20+ years in my future. Portables / walkie-talkies are more about closer concerns in terms of time. Daily, or weekly.
I came up with some ideas about propagation that were pretty damn conceptual and grandiose, probably because I’m new to this kind of theory.
For example, I thought about the implications of gravitonic propagation. If you even mention this stuff in discussions WITH educated people, many will think you’re dumb, or crazy. How fortunate that I already know I’m both!
I enjoyed using the CountyComm GP-7 SSB, which was probably a favorite this year. It’s fun to set up on the beach or in the mountains while camping.
Even though much of the year’s radio use was pretty solitary on purpose, I did do some local volunteering as a radio operator.
In October, I took my son Ben along to volunteer during the Great Shakeout exercise. We manned the emergency ham radio at a rural medical clinic about a half hour drive from here, and the head doctor was with us the entire time, telling us all about what would probably happen to the poor building in an earthquake!
I left him a hand-drawn diagram showing how to operate the radio if he ever needed to. Hopefully it was a little reassuring.
I think Ben enjoyed this experience and I hope it helped him to see a bit outside of the usual “middle school student life” perspective.
Daily Energy Periods
I was in good health this year. Still, nothing is ever perfect. There’s always a bit of an up-and-down to life, isn’t there?
So maybe THAT’s interesting, I thought.
I started to dissect the times when I felt “less-well”, because of my concern than handling those times wrong could make it easier to become “unwell”, and possibly harder to recover back to “well”.
I discovered that every day has some “less-well” periods to it, especially if that’s the only lens we have on what’s happening.
And life frequently provides us with this choice: A) Well, that’s “just” how life goes, or B) Could be interesting, why not explore a bit, see if we can improve our outlook.
In general, if you are really interested in learning, you should “distrust the word ‘just’,” is my thinking.
So, I measured things for a while, and made a chart. Then I constructed some new lenses on these times of day, and discovered a lot of interesting things about my daily energy flow.
As a result, I found that I have more control over: Quality of work, quality of rest and sleep, managing goals, being effective with other people, and so on.
And by the way, I mapped this out over 24 hours, not just daytime hours. If you wake up during the night, I think it’s wise to consider that there are probably also some best-to-fall-asleep times that ebb and flow in your nighttime hours. So, just because you can’t immediately get back to sleep, that isn’t necessarily a bad thing, or even a health thing at all.
In fact, it can really help to look at your watch and know, “my next, reliable fall-asleep point comes in about 45 minutes…it’s cool, I’ll read a book or something, maybe do some journaling.”
And, I’ve learned that it’s helpful to do this even at say 5:30 a.m., when I need to be up and awake at 7! I would not have understood that last year, and this year I’m somehow, strangely, better off for it. (Though, I should also mention that I am now a firm believer in napping at earlier daytime-times, like 9 a.m. if need be. This is less-rational to some, because it’s less-normal to them—but it’s not so much a “let’s be lazy” thing and more of a “logical” thing once you understand how your energy levels work.)
A lot of people in fields like engineering know that measurement generally gives you more control over things. If you want to control something, measure it!
But not many people appreciate the fact that discovering or creating new things to measure is a vastly underrated add-on to the same principle.
I would like to write more about this in the future, as it’s been a fun topic to explore.
KDE Connect
I use KDE on most of my computers right now (previously XFCE, Gnome, GNUStep, etc. etc., not counting Windows and Mac systems here), so I installed KDE Connect on my phone, and use it to help the systems work more closely together.
This has been a huge benefit in a lot of ways. Even just clipboard sharing is a big one. But other aspects (KDE Connect SMS app) are also really useful.
EDC / Everyday Carry
I still collect EDC gear and I think a lot about it. My theory and study of this has expanded quite a bit. I can see more of its metaphorical side now. As more of that side becomes clear, the hobby starts to change in curious ways.
To others, it seems like a “stuff” hobby, where one is merely satisfied by “having stuff” or “buying stuff”. But the metaphorical dimension immediately calls this limited perspective into question.
My EDC item picks of the year:
Picking one (knot) and using the heck out of it.
As an avid outdoorsy-person, hiker, camper, and so on: I kept forgetting the various knots I used to know. Why?
I got the idea it might have been related to depth of practice.
I decided to focus on one knot this year: The simple overhand knot.
So, I used the HELL out of THAT one knot this year. You can see it at least 3-4 places on my person if I’m out hiking. I try to do just about everything with this knot. Hold things together, pull them apart, and so on.
This is really the essence of a depth-first approach to anything. You take that ONE thing and really, really get to know it deeply.
I’ve applied this perspective to lots of other tools and methods as well, and it’s really versatile.
Though there are some issues (especially in theory—try telling a knot-obsessed debater that you use an overhand knot for everything you can!), they are pretty easy to work around, or address in a productive way.
So, maybe I’ll add another knot in the new year! If so, it’ll probably be some lame old underdog knot, similar to the overhand. Nothing fancy.
Hiking
I worked on a lot of new mindsets and personal systems related to hiking. Mostly around these questions:
It’s really helped to be more conscious about this, thinking about it and why it’s good, why it can even be bad, and so on.
I noticed that hiking 7-8 miles into the hills for a break is a lot of fun, but it’s also terrible for other types of fitness or cutting activities, depending on the circumstances. This really sucks, and I hope to reach a bit more of a “hiking as specific fitness / life component” theory in 2024.
Just as my wife Megan has shared that she discovered in her running (she’s almost TOO good at running!), I’m also finding that it’s nice to make some more frequent stops, to take some photos, to enjoy the journey WAY more than I let myself do in the past.
Here are some favorite new lightweight hiking bring-alongs:
AI Psychology
So, AI’s pretty new. It’s a big deal.
Due to my professional experience, and the overlap with technology and psychology: I’ve been casually observing the psychological ecosystem within the AI community.
This is true both for interactions within the AI software development community and regarding its interactions with those outside the community.
What’s interesting here is that we are in a generally volatile period in history right now, with regard to ALL “psychological technology.” This includes AI, but it also includes social/relational “technologies” in which new soft-frameworks are replacing outdated ones.
For this reason, I think AI can seem like a massive, world-changing catalyst, but especially so to AI- and technology-minded people.
To others who are less AI-minded, I think it will be more obvious that the other technologies in which they find interest are also very cathartic and similarly world-changing. It becomes a bit of chicken-vs-egg problem, if you try to compare “what’s really changing us right now?”
Personally, my own ideas and experiences about AI have taken me back to the search engine revolution of the late ’90s. I think about what I would do differently if I could go back in time to that period. The answers aren’t as obvious as I first thought, but they’ve been interesting to consider.
Local AI tools have also been very interesting (AI running on local systems, that is) and I’d really like to see how these evolve over time.
One neat thing is: You can now take AI with you on an extended outdoors outing or hike or campout, with no internet connection, and rely on most of the same benefits. This has HUGE implications for in-situ development of off-grid methodologies, for one, which probably sounds way more dumb than it really is, so my apologies.
Based on previous technology-curve analyses, I’m guessing that we have reached or exceeded the point at which one could pick a single AI platform to use for the next 25 years, and that platform would probably work out OK overall for the duration.
I say that just in case it helps ease the minds of some of you FOMO people out there (I get in that mindset myself sometimes). :-)
Art and Photography
I’ve worked hard to hone my art and photography practices this year, with regard to:
I’ve learned a lot about these practices, but I still have lots of questions, even after decades of practice.
Some of my favorite discoveries in these areas this year include:
This has been really fun and I’m excited to continue learning in these areas in 2024.
Social Media
I spent more time on Instagram and Facebook in 2023. I developed a bit of an updated mental model for these platforms and wanted to test it out. You may notice that everything I post on those platforms is public, and this was deliberate.
I still catch myself feeling bad that I forget to reply to comments, or messages, or whatever it was. I barely have time to get around to my work emails.
Also, just to address this concern I sometimes hear about from readers: I am assuming that these platforms will use whatever I feed into them for evil purposes, if they really feel the need.
At least, that’s the baseline understanding I’m rolling with! So I’m aware of the “big picture downside character flaw” of social media, but I also feel there is a more mutual benefit now.
Home and Family
As usual, I keep trying to find ways to be less annoying at home, and with my family. :-)
My wife and kids still amaze me and it’s exciting to see them grow. I like to see them rest when they can, too! It’s been a lot of fun to see them enjoying new interests and developing old ones.
Conclusion
OK, phew, that should be enough of an update for now.
The post wasn’t meant to be so all-encompassing, but it helped me to reflect just a little bit on those various areas.
Overall, this year has been more focused on technology than last year. It’s also been more restful and healthy overall. This has been a really nice way to reset very specific goals in life, or re-calibrate toward outcomes I want to see.
I’m looking forward to 2024 and whatever it brings! Wishing all my readers the best new year possible—
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In recent weeks, I found myself doing a little bit of work for one of America’s top automotive chains. I say this with some weird pride, because my dad, RIP, loved being a customer at that place.
Dad loved being prepared, and so do I, and so I really loved seeing how excited he’d get when winter storm season started. Car mods incoming—he was prepared!
I know he also loved the way they’d do something for you and give you a little report, and send you on your way.
But in reflecting on the topic, that stuff is more about who we were, Dad and I.
Alas, management of this place probably doesn’t give two f’s about being prepared, and for good reason. They are not us.
So, with that introduction to the topic, let’s get on with the story…
The Task
I was asked to analyze an individual’s communications, and develop an idea of their personality characteristics.
And with that kind of info in hand, maybe I could make some recommendations to management? Interventions, strategies, tips, things to do and not do?
People problems, you see.
“I got horns that hold my other horns, I always come prepared…”
For this kind of thing to go well, you’ve got to be trained in it (I’ve probably been over-trained at this point). You’ve got to be really attuned to various natural pitfalls, for sure.
Here are some examples of the basic pitfalls, or thought patterns, (or even “philosophies,” if you like) that can undermine this kind of work:
In doing this kind of task, it helps if you can understand people through various types of personality models. And it really helps if you’ve been formally tested on that—ideally by a perfectionist who throws you a lot of red herrings!
An Example of a Test Scenario
At one point in a test, I remember asking myself “WHY would this kind of person work in IT?” when reading a short bio of a person I was being tested on. It was one of the last test items I was really stuck on.
Then I got this idea: “What if this question is less about the person I’m reading about here, and more about the test designer?”
So, I thought about what I knew of the test designer, particularly—how do they probably prefer to see themselves?
This was easy: Logical. Meticulous.
(It made me chuckle a bit to reach that conclusion so quickly, because the stuff you generally prefer to think about yourself is always kind of funny, embarrassing, awkward in how awesome it sounds to you, and yet how “huh???” it can sound to other people. It’s a topic that IMO has never been truly and deeply mined for its inherent comedic wealth.)
I re-read the bio, switching from my more normal state of “gestalt, intuitive, broad-minded, symbolic” and into something resemblilng a state of “picky, logical, focused only on what I can read, attempting to read NOTHING between the lines”.
Poof! The answer to the whole thing lay before me. The whole story practically came alive right off the page!
“It was just another goddamn puzzle…written by someone who’s getting off on how logical they are!” I deny ever thinking to myself.
This example highlights a very important string of factors that are super-relevant in this kind of work:
The Voice
Now, in case you’re reading this thinking “this is interesting, I’m not familiar,” there’s one big thing that you might have, that I don’t.
An internal monologue.
Internal monologues are a fascinating topic to me because I never had one of those. And in recent years, it’s been increasingly common to come across podcast episodes like “Interview with a person who has NO INTERNAL MONOLOGUE” or whatever. Like OK, I get it, you think this is weird for YOU, because that inner voice has been a huge feature of YOUR life.
I C U
I do have a kind-of equivalent. It’s what some call “inner sight,” and based on what I know of it, it definitely can be described as a foundational factor that drives my whole life and career.
The way it works is,
And…loop. Repeat. This is how my mind works during much of the day. Maybe it’s with writing, maybe with coding, or something else.
It guesses at outcomes, but it guesses based on a guess about what kind of guesses will probably be more reliable than others.
I know some others who do this too, and am not making the claim that it’s really super-unique. But I wanted to provide an example of an alternative to an “internal monologue” or “inner voice,” because people usually ask me what that might be, if they’re only used to the internal monologue.
Why Somebody’s Internal Voice is Worth Knowing
If you get to know somebody’s internal voice, you can build up a really quick set of insights as to the state of of their subjective world.
(A lot of people worry about this kind of exposure, and rightly so! Still: No shame, I think. Better to own the fear—“if you find yourself in hell, keep going,” etc.)
Sometimes, this is a really sad discovery, or chain of discoveries. You can discover that you are friends with somebody who, for example, has a BRUTAL and TERRIBLE inner voice.
That voice might be saying terrible things ABOUT you, for much of the time you spend together! It really could be.
It has probably, definitely said terrible things ABOUT them, which is also unfortunate.
And what interests me lately: THAT VOICE is often the one reading, interpreting, and commenting on YOUR messages to this friend of yours!
So there’s this strange and very interesting issue: You don’t get to deliver your own message on that other person’s inner stage.
However important the message, you just don’t get to do that.
Your Inner Stageplay
I like the metaphor of an “inner stageplay.” Thoughts are like actors. They present lines of thought. Opinions.
An individual tends to favor certain actors on their inner stageplay. They also tend to hate or dislike, or ignore other actors.
This, we can say, is what gives this individual a specific personality.
(“Phew, the logical person is back on the stage! Kick the clowns out with their physical humor and loud music!” is one possible representation of a mere moment’s mental activity on such a stage.)
But to me, the inner voice is an even more powerful actor than just “a perspective”. It’s practically in its own league. It’s a member of the troupe who can instantly change the play in various ways.
This is similar for my inner vision, by the way—it’s very active and persuasive. And it’s been wrong a LOT! But still, I can hardly turn it down a notch, let alone ignore it. It’s just in a different class, where the presentation of various perspectives on the internal stage is concerned.
Influencing the Voice
So, some interesting questions come to mind, in this line of work:
(Personality-change is to me a bit less of an interesting topic these days, because I’ve heard so many perspectives on it. My experience is that: Yes it does, and no it doesn’t. So it’s much better to know the general details—how, when, why, etc.—than to cling to such a silly answer!)
Analysis & Strange Observations
Anyway, so I analyzed the f**k out of this individual. Naturally I took this process to 11, due to a variety of funny factors. Like the fact that this isn’t exactly RAND Corporation, but more like a place where you get car stuff done? That’s WEIRD and INTERESTING!
So I thought about the various factors for days and days.
At the end of that process, I had a very good idea of this person’s internal stageplay. For every complaint about them, I felt extreme empathy on their behalf. For every compliment, I was ready to wave their banner even higher!
One of the specific observations I knew I needed to include went something like this:
“You told individual X that they were not well suited as a leader. But you told them that because of the kind of leader you are. They are a very logical, hands-on person. Your leadership style is different from this.
It’s obvious in my analysis that they’ve had a logic-based, hands-on type of leadership experience. And I can see why you missed it, because you don’t think like they do. And so instead of teasing that out, you compared them to these other kinds of leaders over here.
So now, as a result, you may sound more like a liar and manipulator to them. This will undermine your position. And here’s what you should do about that.”
Here’s Your Report
There were so many points like that to cover. I definitely had the age-old consulting problem on my hand: How do you take a problem from the point of view of deep career-expertise and condense it, adapt it, teach it?
So then I had to analyze the person who requested that I do this work.
What kind of voice, on this topic, would sound like a voice of reason to them?
Where do the two voices intersect?
And how does my voice complicate this?
Phew!
Well, be it ever so complicated: We talked it over. And for anything I missed in person…it’s all there in the report.
Now they’re prepared!
Filed in: Thinking /70/ | Control /111/ | Relationships /78/ | Intuition /63/ | People /74/
Want more control over the implementation of your code idea by ChatGPT? Want your time spent with ChatGPT to be a bit more interesting, or possibly inspiring?
If so, try using a more interactive, prospective design prompt which sources a variety of ideas, like this example (my emphasis in bold):
Write a bash script with three functions: Allow a user to select how many dice to roll, roll the dice, and announce the results graphically. For each function, allow me to pick from three different ways of creating the function.
The resulting code may then look something like this:
#!/bin/bash
# Function 1: Allowing the user to select how many dice to roll
# Option 1: Read input from user
select_dice_count_1() {
read -p "Enter the number of dice to roll: " dice_count
echo $dice_count
}
# Option 2: Using command-line arguments
select_dice_count_2() {
dice_count=$1
echo $dice_count
}
# Option 3: Using a default value
select_dice_count_3() {
dice_count=1
echo $dice_count
}
# Function 2: Rolling the dice
# Option 1: Using the $RANDOM variable
roll_dice_1() {
echo $((RANDOM % 6 + 1))
}
# Option 2: Using the shuf command
roll_dice_2() {
shuf -i 1-6 -n 1
}
# Option 3: Using an array to represent the dice faces
roll_dice_3() {
dice_faces=("1" "2" "3" "4" "5" "6")
index=$((RANDOM % 6))
echo "${dice_faces[$index]}"
}
# Function 3: Announcing the results graphically
# Option 1: Using a for loop and printf
announce_results_1() {
for ((i = 1; i <= $1; i++)); do
printf "[Dice $i] - $2\n"
done
}
# Option 2: Using echo and a separator line
announce_results_2() {
for ((i = 1; i <= $1; i++)); do
echo "Dice $i: $2"
done
echo "-----------------"
}
# Option 3: Using ASCII art for graphical representation
announce_results_3() {
for ((i = 1; i <= $1; i++)); do
echo "╔═══╗"
echo "║ $2 ║"
echo "╚═══╝"
done
}
# Main script
# Selecting dice count
dice_count=$(select_dice_count_1) # Change the function name to select_dice_count_2 or select_dice_count_3 for different options
# Rolling the dice
results=""
for ((i = 1; i <= dice_count; i++)); do
result=$(roll_dice_1) # Change the function name to roll_dice_2 or roll_dice_3 for different options
results+=" $result"
done
# Announcing the results
announce_results_1 $dice_count "$results" # Change the function name to announce_results_2 or announce_results_3 for different optionsThen, simply alter the function names as needed (these places in the code were helpfully indicated by ChatGPT in comments).
Did you notice that these are now actually software-design questions you’re faced with, not simply “how to code that” questions?
This highlights the possibility of using ChatGPT for designing while coding, not just for simple coding.
Don’t stop there
With the creative juices starting to flow, you can, and should, also continue to ask for more creative, rare, funny, or obscure ideas. For example, this follow-up prompt:
Give 3 more creative options for the display of the result.
…produced the code to display 1) ASCII dice with pips instead of numbers, 2) ANSI-colored dice graphics, and 3) emoji dice.
And you can keep going further—I asked ChatGPT for three even more creative options, and it then offered a way to play a sound effect of dice rolling, and two ways of animating the resulting dice rolls.
I was surprised to see the sound effect option, and it got me thinking—does this need to be a boring script, or could some more creativity be really fun and interesting?
Adding flexibility to your design process is worth it
This simple hack gives you more direct, authorship-style control over the initial style, feel, and functionality of your script or program.
This is helpful because you can end up developing a superior outcome more quickly, by reviewing a variety of different design choices as soon as possible.
Also, down the road it will become harder (mostly in terms of your own working memory & patience, etc.) to change things, so a design process that is more interactive in this way will generally work in your favor.
Note that you’ll want to change the approach depending on the style of scripting or programming you’re using (if something else other than functional). Be sure to take advantage of the additional prompt length that ChatGPT can work with, to specify details about the type of code you want to see.
(Or possibly, to prompt ChatGPT to offer ideas as to different types of code you might want to see!)
Use it for non-code things as well
As a bonus, this tip also works when you are asking ChatGPT for non-code-related tips and other queries.
For example, if asking for tips on a given topic, you can add something like:
Present the tips in three different styles, only presenting the first tip of each style at first. Allow me to choose which style I like best before continuing with the rest of the tips.
The resulting output can prime your intuition to think more clearly about the way you may end up using the information. This means engaging your conceptualizing skills in co-design with ChatGPT, for a better result.
YOU will feel more creative as a result. You should end up feeling at least a bit less like a copy-paste author or coder, which can be a reassuring benefit for the newcomer.
Conclusion & some final thoughts on breadth
Not only can it be fun to see where things go with this kind of a prompt, but in my opinion this little hack can give you a better idea of the broad capabilities of ChatGPT, as opposed to its singular, deep capabilities.
Most people will err on the side of deep assistance when asking for coding help, aiming for one really good, single result. But getting your code some more breadth exposure throughout the process can be vital to getting an even better outcome.
Filed in: Ne /17/ | Ni /42/ | Technology /41/ | Productivity /120/ | Intuition /63/
Lately I’ve noticed that I get some unexpected benefits from being more human, and conversational, with ChatGPT.
Prior to this, I was kind of above that, in the sense that I didn’t want to act as if I thought ChatGPT was a real human. Pshah! Ignore all the fake-human stuff!
But isn’t that kind of the point, that it will at least try?
So today, I gave in. I wrote something like: “omg sorry, I forgot to enter parameters when testing this code. Of course I got a nasty error message. Can we make it fail more gracefully?”
I got this response:
No problem at all! I’m glad we got to the bottom of the issue. Yes, it’s a good idea to check for missing parameters and give a user-friendly error message.
This was at the end of a long day. I had to pause and reflect: This felt way better than “OK,” or “Yes” or “Understood”, for all the extra reading those would save.
It’s really pretty nice, in fact.
One thing this kind of pattern actually does is expose the conversation to more of YOUR psychology and perspectives. You expose it to more nerves to tickle, let’s say. Or in effect, you are giving the AI more of your brain’s surface area to work on.
(And isn’t this kind of like going to a masseuse and not complaining about the hard day at work a bit, since you are mainly focused on getting the foot massage you paid for? Isn’t that some extra value you’re leaving on the table, if you don’t let out that work stress a little bit?)
So, if you think of the ChatGPT experience as a basic kind of VR—let’s say a way more intuitive / mind-based VR than the usual sensory type of VR, but still VR—then one argument I’d make is that the VR experience will get way better for you, and more beneficial, the more you do this kind of thing.
Hmm! This is getting interesting to think about—how many surface areas could we prompt it to work on in a single sentence?
Some other benefits I’m noticing from various little add-ins:
So, from here on out I’m planning to lean way more into the human aspects, and I’m interested to see what that means or implies for leveraging the tooling-experience further.
Filed in: Feeling /64/ | Fe /20/ | Technology /41/